father's day
Father's Day...a day with many mixed emotions. It's hard to settle all the words spinning in my brain into sentences, much less rational thoughts. This is a day we celebrate fathers, so I'll celebrate mine.
What I remember most was him always saying, 'Don't tell mom.'
He told me that so many times that I'd place my finger against his lips and say it for him. Don't tell mom I bought you candy. Don't tell mom I fed you cake for breakfast. Don't tell mom about our 'special time'.
Don't worry, father. I never told her. Would she have believed me anyway? She spent her days inside a vodka bottle, barely coming up for air long enough to feed me. How she didn't know...
But enough about her, father. Today is your special day. I will tell the world all the things you taught me and showed me at such a young age. From daughter to lover by age 10, you made sure I was ready for this violent cruel world. Maybe I should thank you.
Happy Father's Day. I know you're not here and that makes me sad. I wish I could kill you again.
What I remember most was him always saying, 'Don't tell mom.'
He told me that so many times that I'd place my finger against his lips and say it for him. Don't tell mom I bought you candy. Don't tell mom I fed you cake for breakfast. Don't tell mom about our 'special time'.
Don't worry, father. I never told her. Would she have believed me anyway? She spent her days inside a vodka bottle, barely coming up for air long enough to feed me. How she didn't know...
But enough about her, father. Today is your special day. I will tell the world all the things you taught me and showed me at such a young age. From daughter to lover by age 10, you made sure I was ready for this violent cruel world. Maybe I should thank you.
Happy Father's Day. I know you're not here and that makes me sad. I wish I could kill you again.